Our Journey So Far...

Wow! What a journey it has been. I really thought I'd be pregnant or have a baby by now. Little did I know it wasn't as easy as I thought. It all started back in August of 2004 when we got married. I was on birth control just to change my cycle for the honeymoon. Deep down I was hoping to get pregnant quickly after getting married. However, Jeff and I discussed it and decided to give ourselves 1 year of marriage with just the 2 of us before adding to our family. We wanted to give ourselves time to enjoy each other. I'm glad we waited, I just wish it didn't take this long! But then again, that little voice inside my head says..."Everything happens for a reason, Julie!" And I know that voice is right. There is divine timing for everything. So...in the summer of 2005, Jeff and I decided to start trying for a little Wagner. We tried and tried! I charted, took my temp, used ovulation prediction kits (OPKs), etc. N-O-T-H-I-N-G!!!! I got obsessed!!!! And Jeff got annoyed. I don't blame him. All I focused on was wanting to get pregnant and we were losing touch of each other. It was getting really hard...especially when more and more people around me were getting pregnant. That just made my urgency grow. Looking back on this I realize how crazy I got! Geeze! I feel bad for Jeff and what I probably put him through. It got to the point where we decided to stop trying because I was way too obsessed about it. We realized that it just wasn't time and I need to just put the charts, the thermometer and the OPKs AWAY! So I did. As hard as it was, I did! That was in August of 2005. 5 months later, January of 2006, we decided to just let things happen. No charting, no OPKs, just lots of baby making whenever - no planning involved. I was convinced that this was the trick and we would end up pregnant in no time. No stressing! That's what EVERYONE says to do. Just don't think about it and it will happen. HA! Yeah, right! How can you NOT think about it when it's all you want? So Jeff and I just went about our business and continued to try without obsessing. But still N-O-T-H-I-N-G!
By September of 2006, 8 months later, I started charting again. Obviously the no obsessing plan didn't work. I decided that I need to have more control over this. Maybe by not obsessing we were actually missing ovulation. So Jeff and I both agreed that charting was the way to go. By this point we were both getting disappointed each month when that dreaded time would actually come. During this same time I found a group of friends online who were going through the same thing as me. I am so grateful for finding them because they have truly helped me get through so much. Through them I've gotten tons of support and have grown so much more knowledgeable about this whole TTC (trying to conceive) thing. This is when we finally took the next path in our journey...